Tomorrow is results day. In case you’ve been living under a rock, this is the pinnacle of my life, the meaning of my existence and possibly the difference between life and death. So yeah, pretty important to me.

I’m planning on living on clearing tonight. It goes live at midnight and I will be there, getting prepared for the worst case scenarios.. or as many shit scenarios as possible. I am very depressed right now :/

I am incredibly certain I wouldn’t have got the grades. Just the thought of certain papers (chem, maths) is enough to make me feel physically sick. Those exams were horrendous and the gutting thing is that I could have worked harder, so much harder, but for some reason I didn’t and I am going to regret it so, so much tomorrow. Yeah, it will be my own fault and that makes it all worse.

Ironic thing; I had to go to school to get a picture taken for the evening post this afternoon. The camera dude was awful, he had a few brown envelopes and was like, “your results are here” I think I died. We had to wave these envelopes about and be “happy” with the results.. problem is, I could actually be slitting my wrists tomorrow and there’ll be this god awful picture somewhere. :/

Currently listening to:

This has been my calm down tune for the last few day, ever since I started counting down to tomorrow actually. I love this song, it’s so cute and chilled out.

Oh and someone please buy me this jumper? Thanks

Peace out.